the third.
Filed under: my so-called lovelife
[warning: mushy and emo post]
it's funny. i never would have thought that we would reach this far (as if napakalayo na nang narating namin). well sure, we were shooting for a minimun 5 years at the beginning of our relationship-- that was very sweet and hopeful of us. but after some time, like in all relationships, there was a point wherein it seemed that 1 year isn't even possible.
i know i'm not the best girlfriend in the whole world. i know that i can be pretty selfish, immature and irrational sometimes (okay.. most of the time). but despite all of these, he's still here. with me. as in he actually chose to still be with me. i still can't believe it sometimes.
sometimes it seems that it isn't even real. it's not that i don't believe he loves me-- it's just my imagination, insecurities and paranoia going wild. i guess i'm just scared of losing him. if i were to (knock-on-wood) lose him, i wouldn't want it to be because of my personality whatsoever-- i'd rather we (knock-on-wood) break up because of.. something else. haha.
i remember someone saying that it would take one hell of a guy to change me. or actually make me even want it.
and after everything that we have gone through the past 3 months, i just want to say THANK YOU. and i hope the time comes when we can shoot again for 5 years.
it's funny. i never would have thought that we would reach this far (as if napakalayo na nang narating namin). well sure, we were shooting for a minimun 5 years at the beginning of our relationship-- that was very sweet and hopeful of us. but after some time, like in all relationships, there was a point wherein it seemed that 1 year isn't even possible.
i know i'm not the best girlfriend in the whole world. i know that i can be pretty selfish, immature and irrational sometimes (okay.. most of the time). but despite all of these, he's still here. with me. as in he actually chose to still be with me. i still can't believe it sometimes.
sometimes it seems that it isn't even real. it's not that i don't believe he loves me-- it's just my imagination, insecurities and paranoia going wild. i guess i'm just scared of losing him. if i were to (knock-on-wood) lose him, i wouldn't want it to be because of my personality whatsoever-- i'd rather we (knock-on-wood) break up because of.. something else. haha.
i remember someone saying that it would take one hell of a guy to change me. or actually make me even want it.
and after everything that we have gone through the past 3 months, i just want to say THANK YOU. and i hope the time comes when we can shoot again for 5 years.
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