lisaisms

i'm not really into this UAAP season. i'm glad and proud of the team, but i didn't really root for them in any way. i went to the bonfire but left early. i miss being a student, THAT life. for a brief moment, i thought that going back to ateneo would bring everything back--which is completely unrealistic, of course. i don't know if it was just the weather, crowd or whatever, but it just didn't feel right. ateneo seemed so different and distant. the one place where i used to feel safe and comfortable (aside from our house) now feels strangely unfamiliar. at first i thought how much ateneo has changed the past two years, but i realized that it was really ME who changed. i'm no longer that idealistic student or easy-going dormer. i'm now an adult, and surprisingly, i don't feel that bad about it anymore.

(sorry for the crappy photo--took pics while trying to keep up with joan and kramer. hehe)

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this article has been going around the atenean community. quite a good read.

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i'm

really

terrible

at

relationships.

a lot of things have been going on with m life recently, so i haven't been blogging as much as i normally do. some random news:

• Ateneo won the championship in the UAAP men's basketball
  
• i took a test in P&G--and passed! currently waiting for an interview sked.
• been on an emotional roller coaster (again) and now back on safe/ sane ground
• i'm back in the drinking game
• watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 (i know what you're thinking: WTF?!) and enjoyed it
• a recent project:
  

rego 200 by ~rinascita on deviantART


jazz by ~rinascita on deviantART

• tripod
• lensbaby
  
• headset
• funds to attend a class--fashion styling/ photography/ makeup
• a new job
• a commitment-ready guy (i just had to include this. hehe) someone i can count on
  
• a nice bag
• a nice pair of shoes
• COURAGE
  

i'm not really sure how to start off this post. i'm not feeling like myself lately and i've missed (and am still missing) a lot of things, but i feel like i should say something. anything. so here goes another round of rambling:

• i'm really tired of my current job. unfortunately, i'm not in the position to resign yet. i never thought that i would spend more than a year there. i've had several interviews the past 2 weeks, but i haven't found a job/ company that i really like.
  
• i want to learn something new again. my choices are: commercial product photography, Adobe Illustrator basics (in PCCI), fashion styling and make-up (either in SOFA or LaSalle College).
  
• we haven't talked at all this weekend. i hate to say this, but i think it's going downhill from here (relationship-wise). i'm always praying for him and i'm happy that he's into other things, but what if the answer to my prayers and to his problems is for us to part ways? and what's worse is that i don't even have the fuckin' right to feel this way--after all, there's no "commitment" between us.. i just want someone i can COUNT ON.
• finished reading Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson this week. i wanted to write about it, but as usual, didn't get to do so. amazing book. new favorite author.
• tried to move to WordPress, but since i can't use a custom theme until i upgrade my account, i decided to stick with good ol' Blogger. guess it's the boredom.
• been watching the long overdue Season 6 of The Sopranos--probably my favorite series of all time. will watch Arrested Development after.
• i miss going out. i feel like a lola. or rapunzel. only i don't have long hair.
  
• after a month of hiatus, the few times i've been to the mall i've spent around Php5k already. not much, but given that i haven't received a month's salary and that i have to pay my mom Php5,400 monthly, i'm not really in any position to spend. but i do think i deserve it anyway, so i'm burning my credit card.
  
• i take back what i said in an earlier post about getting my photography groove back. apparently i'm not.
• for some reason, i'm not into the UAAP anymore. heck, i haven't watched an Ateneo game yet. tried to, but i get bored.