lisaisms

doug kramer and chesca garcia's wedding. they're such a cute couple--bagay talaga sila sa isa't isa. :)


Cheska and Doug SDE from Jason Magbanua on Vimeo.

pag kinasal ako--isang napakalaking "pag"--di bale nang magutom yung guests, basta meron akong DESIGNER GOWN, perfect makeup at well-made video. :)

i just love this commercial from discovery channel:

after all my angsty-pantsing a while ago, i get this text message:

You'll never find anybody that achieves great success in life without a give up story. Nothing comes free. There will come a time when you too will have to give up something good if you want something better.

*sigh*

...stays in bora.

it's been a week since mary, gela, joan and i have gone to bora. unfortunately, i'm unable to recount everything-- it's really because so much has happened in so little time, and i think that they would agree that the four of us have bonded in our island adventure.

that's really what it was: an adventure.

i'm sort of disappointed in myself because i took less photos than planned. on the other hand, i'm glad i didn't take malcolm with me all the time (i love you!!!) because i wouldn't have truly experienced IT.

i'm not really a fan of bora (as far as the beach and parties go) but i would love to go back there with my girls and just CHILL. it's not really what you do in bora that makes it so memorable-- i could go parasailing, barhopping, ride an ATV, sail, dive, snorkel and still consider the whole thing forgettable. but i can also just laze by the beach, sip my mango shake, get my tan, oblivious to the world, and just ENJOY.

but for the sake of posterity and "untaken" pictures, our bora experience would not have been the same without:

• the boys: kramer, derek, row, ping, agents no. 1 & 2
• our quest to have nice tans (*ehem*)
• aria (the best pizza and pasta) and real coffee (the best brownies and marc's melt)
• the fulfillment of my (kababawan) dreams: getting a tan by the beach while sipping on a shake and getting a massage by the beach
• our photoshoot (in fairness, naglevel up talaga tayo *pat on the back for all*)

just <3.

(singit lang: ang sarap mag type sa bago kong bata na wala pang pangalan. hehe.)


*room and derek pics from gela.

never coherent when still on a high :)

\saturday
SHOPPING and coffee with mary and gela, and cameos by joan and kramer (dahil pasulpot-sulpot sila. hehe).

\sunday
European Higher Education Fair with gela in the afternoon, and a mcdonald's party after.

\monday
photoshoot at ateneo and TOSH talks with mary, zye and pril. thank you girls for being such good sports and for ACTUALLY taking me and this shoot seriously! discovered (or confirmed!) the following:

• we watch too much of America's Next Top Model
  
• there is a difference between commercial and high-fashion modeling: mary vs zye!
• me as nigel barker and pril as jay manuel
• i look like a skank in a black tube dress
  
• i love fashion, and apparently, a closet/ in-denial kikay too (ewwwww)
  
• i am a better photographer than a model. nyahaha!
• we gotta put our game face on *wink*
  

lelevel up tayo!!!

one of the best weekends ever :)

jonpaul douglass photography.

matthew mahon.

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i had coffee this evening with aeo. after almost a year, i can really say that i am definitely so over it already. it was weird, but it was also very.. nice.

we're really friends and i'm happy. :)

i went to the wake of my friend's mom last thursday. my friend, oj, called me on dec. 21. we haven't talked or seen each other in a very long time, and i was surprised that he did. he wanted somebody to talk to. he told me that the doctors gave his mother, who had cancer, only a week more. she passed away moments before christmas eve.

it was the first time our family spent new year's eve away from one another. my mom was rushed to the hospital yesterday because she was dizzy and her abdomen hurt like hell. turns out that she has myoma and cysts in her uterus and ovaries, and she will have to undergo a hysterectomy tomorrow.

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i finished reading The New Life by Orhan Pamuk yesterday in the waiting area of the Makati Medical Center. honestly, i did not understand the whole point of the story--maybe because i was distracted by the annoying kid/ cold/ stinky drivers. the journey for the New Life seemed pointless. after all the chase, deceit and murder-- he didn't get anything that he wanted. nothing seemed to amount to anything. but i realized after that maybe THAT was the real message. we spend our lives on trivial things and search for things that maybe are not there at all. we spend too much time pondering and wandering, when we should just focus on what's right in front of us.

things do happen when they need to. i bought this book just because i didn't have something to read over the christmas break and it had a good title. i never would have thought that it would have such an impact on me. in some ways i feel like the character in the book: constantly switching from one bus to another in pursuit of an Angel, of a New Life, always meeting people who remain acquaintances, adapting to each situation and changing identities as needed. i feel like i'm in search of something, but a something that i'm not really sure of. i feel like i'm journeying to nowhere in particular, just moving. i'm in this point of my life where nothing seems to make sense anymore, and i'm actually thinking and saying to myself that i want a new life.

but i'm not having that anymore. i'm through wanting, waiting and running after whatnot. after the events that happened (especially this month), i realized that there are a gazillion things that are more important: self-acceptance and family. whatever else that needs to be done will be realized in time.

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something that i picked up from Avatar (this show is actually good):

"The monks say hope is a distraction, it's not gonna get us through this bridge and it's not gonna find Appa."

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since i kept most of my resolutions last year, i'm making more for this year:

• from last year: totally stop smoking. last year i only smoked socially (a huge improvement), but this year, i am going to quit completely.
  
• get some exercise. i have been such a lazy bum since i started working (almost 2 years now). i did get thinner (probably only due to stress), but my arms, tummy and thighs are flabbier. i REALLY need to get fit again.
• practice photography. i'm planning to do at least one of these. [update: started project 365 in flickr.]
  
• prioritize my family. i know that i have not been making my family a priority for the past few years of my life, and it took the recent events (my grandfather's illness, oj's mom's death and my mom's hysterectomy) to make me realize the importance of family in one's life. i also realized this year that friendship is not forever. sad but true: i can't always count on my friends. i've been with my friends for 4 years, and now is the time for me to focus on my family. after all, i do want to have a family of my own one day, and i want my future husband and future children to value this as well.
  
• be more thankful :)

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what i learned from watching The Sopranos (so far):

• you can use the word "fuck" in any fucking sentence
• i fucking love italian food
• it is possible to be in a fucking dysfunctional family and get fucking good grades
• italian women stay fit while their husbands are fucking fat
• deceit and betrayal is the fucking way to go
  
• being in a mob is way fucking cool and even more fucking complicated
  
• i need to see a fucking shrink
  

i got 2nd place in our batch's still life photo contest! i know this may seem insignificant to most, but it's the first time i've actually won anything. it's a big deal for me especially because the judges were professionals known in their respective fields of photography. it's just what i needed to boost my confidence.

waaah i got my package from cafepress yesterday!! my first online purchase. hehe. i ordered my stuff from deviantart and cafepress just to see how the prints would look like. if they turn out good, then i'll probably promote my online stores. so far, the magnet i got from cafepress looks okay. from the pics i have, it seems as if i'm doing a store for travel souvenirs. then again, the only travel pics i have are from leyte and australia. haha. gotta do more traveling, store or no store.

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LSS again. this time it's Helicopter by Flickerstick.

oh i've got to think it over
running on eggshells watching your demons bleed
i said
oh i've got to think it over
running on eggshells watching your demons bleed
i said
ive got to do something about where we're going
watching your demons bleed
i said
i've got to do something about where we're going
watching your demons

cause you're so close to giving up
I can tell enough's enough
Oh I see in your eyes
maybe you were wrong
maybe you weren't strong enough
so here's a little tune
sing it to the blue

oh i've got to think it over
get on the dance floor you're coming over to me
oh i've got to think it over
get on the dance floor you're coming over to me
i've got to do something about where your going
your coming over too late
i've got to do something about where your going
your coming over too late

cause you're so close to giving up
I can tell enough's enough
Oh I see in your eyes
maybe you were wrong
maybe you weren't strong enough
so here's a little tune
sing it to the blue

call off the nurses and the doctors
tell the priest in the helicopter
waiting there for you
there's nothing he can do

oh i've got to think it over
running on eggshells watching your demons bleed
i said
oh i've got to think it over
get on the dance floor your coming over

cause you're so close to giving up
I can tell enough's enough
Oh I see in your eyes
maybe you were wrong
maybe you weren't strong enough

cause you're so close to giving up
I can tell enough's enough
Oh I see in your eyes
maybe you were wrong
maybe you weren't strong enough

cause you're so close to giving up
I can tell enough's enough
Oh I see in your eyes
maybe you were wrong
maybe you weren't strong enough
so here's a little tune
sing it to the blue

won't you get a clue?
won't you get a clue?

joke lang! i still haven't watched it. (i know, i know, what a loser.) anyway, i've gotten back to my habit of transforming things -- this time it's clothes once again!!!

from to

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watched christina aguilera's back to basics concert with joan and her family. some pics here.

za muzikal!!! grabe ang kabadingan ever! kamusta naman ang LSS ng "babae na ako"?? hahaha! at nakadiskubre pa ako ng bagong papa -- si arnold reyes a.k.a. dodong. hotness to infinity!!!!!!

(sorry for the gayspeak, but i have a hangover.)

nagkakasala ako habang nanonood ng play. wahahaha! never kong naisip na magseselos ako sa isang fictional na bading.


bago ko makaligtaan, magaling si k brosas as zsa zsa. kudos to vincent de jesus (ada), nar cabico (didi) and kalila aguilos (queen femina)!

victoria itech!!!

it's about time that i take matters into my own hands.. and i feel a whole lot better.

1. take up a class. primarily, i want to take up a class in photography-- a step i have to take if i really want to pursue my dream job. PCCI offers a wide range of courses. i also recently found out that ateneo has a diploma course on photojournalism. unfortunately, i can't find a class that fits my schedule. and so i thought that i'd better learn something else in the meantime: another language. i have always wanted to learn french or italian because i love art and dream of visiting europe. now i just have to make up my mind which of the two i should take up. more people speak french so i should find it more useful. consequently, italian's unique and astig, but more expensive. any views?
2. buy a laptop. since my mom volunteered robin, my old laptop (yes, i name my gadgets) WITHOUT my permission, i just have to get a new one to store all my junk. i've decided to buy a macbook.
   it's just so... gwapo :) the mac stores jack up the prices like crazy. anyone know where i can get it for a reasonable price?
   
3. finally do THAT thing i've been thinking of doing for months. i don't think i need to explain this-- for now. i'll post something about this definitely some time within the week.
   
4. play and pray. apparently, boys can be really stupid now matter what age they are. and i'm sure they also say this about women: can't live with them, can't live without them. right now, i really don't want to get attached to anyone. i'm not expecting to be in a relationship again anytime soon, but i am constantly wishing for my own Greatest Guy (again).
   

reiterating what i said in my previous post: kuya Jess has some weird ways of making things okay.

you have entered my life (again!) and-- for lack of a better term-- captured my liking (again!). i'm assuming This is just a joke, yet i'm secretly wishing for This to be true. but i do want to get to know you more. i'm just playing it safe, because no matter what happens, whether this is real or not, it really can't work out in the long run.

today is amusing. confusing too-- in a good way.

and it's pril's birthday! :)

amazement. one minute you're down, the next minute you're laughing so hard you're on the floor. kuya Jess has some weird ways of making things okay.


today is brando boy day. at kahit joketime lang-- i Like and i Kilig!

A Little Help From My Friends by The Beatles

What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing out of key.

I get by with a little help from my friends,
I get high with a little help from my friends,
Going to try with a little help from my friends.

What do I do when my love is away.(Does it worry you to be alone)
How do I feel by the end of the day(Are you sad because you're on your own)
No I get by with a little help from my friends,

Do you need anybody, I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.
Would you believe in a love at first sight,
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light,
I can't tell you, but I know it's mine.

Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,I just need somebody to love,
Could it be anybody,
I want somebody to love.I get by with a little help from my friends,
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
With a little help from my friends.

exactly. ang galing. medyo nagtampo ako kay kuya Jess kasi hindi niya binigay yung matagal at matindi kong pinagdarasal. sa totoo lang, yung kabaliktaran ng idinasal ko yung nangyari. pero pagkatapos ng ilang araw, nakita kong hindi nga niya binigay sa akin yung hinihingi ko-- ang ibinigay niya sa akin ay higit pa pala doon. nawala nga ang pagmamahal ng isa, pero naipamalas naman sa akin ang pagmamahal ng madami.