i don't know why, but lately i have not been in the mood for anything. sure, i've been very productive -- this may be the most productive i have been in my entire life -- it's as if i keep on moving and moving, but i'm getting nowhere. and worse, i actually see the point of doing whatever it is that i'm doing, for the first time in my life i am actually rational, but i just don't feel it. it doesn't seem right for me to feel so... uncomfortable. it's weird. the unbearable lightness of being?

i find myself sinking back to limbo. work limbo. i know what i'm supposed to do, and i am actually doing it. but it still doesn't feel right. my so-called lovelife limbo. well, really can't say much about that since it's practically non-existent.

boys are stupid.

you. why are you the way you are and why the hell do i even like you?! and why the fuck do you have to be THERE???? i want to scream at your face just so you'll notice that i. am. just. here. literally within your reach.

maybe i'm just bored. or PMS-ing. blah.

and then the lightbulb turns on. i feel uneasy because everything in this phase of my life seems so slow. slow and monotonous.

congrats lisa, you have finally figured one thing out.

i miss rambling. i need something new.