last week: aba, nabuhay. para sabihing may bagong girlfriend na siya.

today: aba, nabuhay. para sabihing engaged na siya.

at magkaibang lalaki yan ah. wahahaha. winner talaga.

pota.

it hurts to hear that he has moved on to another relationship. it hurts to hear how much he loves the girl. it hurts to hear how much the girl loves him. it hurts to hear that he is willing to overcome obstacles just to be with her. it hurts to hear that they have met each other's families and that they actually get along. it hurts to hear that he is willing to go all the way to paranaque. it hurts to hear that he listens to what she tells him. it hurts to hear that he does not get mad at her. it hurts to hear that he goes down on his knees to apologize to her. it hurts to hear that this girl is the one to finally changed him. it hurts to hear that the girl is everything i'm not. it hurts to hear that he has found a better girl.

thank you for making me feel like shit, for making me feel that i was never worth it. grabe, salamat talaga.

i feel sad, regretful, jealous, angry and unappreciated.

and yet, i also feel happy (and relieved).

i am happy that he finally found the right girl. I am happy that he is in a good relationship. i am happy that he has become a better person because of her. i am happy that everything in his life is finally falling into place.

i just wish things in my life also fall into place soon.

pero pota. kina-karma ata ako.

but i am okay. seriously. i just hope he stops:
  • comparing our relationship to theirs. fine, i know this relationship (and girl) is better, but dammit, stop rubbing it in my face.
  • letting me know that he's comparing, at the least.
  • calling me just to say how much he misses her. ok, you miss her, i get it. but do not follow it up with...
  • flirting. where and when in this universe is flirting with your ex appropriate?!