lisaisms

that was the first thing that popped into my mind after i finished reading chuck palaniuk's "diary."

it's been a long time since i reacted that way after reading a book. i think the last time was after i read-- and actually understood-- "the unbearable lightness of being" by milan kundera.

it was unexpected. i bought the book because i needed to read. to keep my mind going. i was debating over "dracula" and dante's "inferno." but for some reason, i picked up diary. and it seemed that there was nothing special about the story, even as i was reading it. yes, i was wrong.

it starts a little slow, but when you get to the middle, you just can't put it down. i must say though that the book is not for all. not everyone will, or can, appreciate the story. but hey, i'm not stopping anyone. i just realized how nihilist i can be. haha.

bermuda triangulated. such wit.

with just two calls.

i hate this. i don't know what to do (or not to do) anymore.

i should really learn how to put the phone down.

what's become of my life? well, here's an overview:

1. i'm currently in the process of "letting go." the term's overused, i know, and i hate it. letting go of what exactly? of fears, rejections, insecurities, loves and hates. i want to move on. i know it's cliche, especially now that we've graduated (and for some reason, more and more people are doing the same), but hey, this is life. it's painful, but the thought of other people going through the same thing makes it bearable, yet less painful.
2. occupation: professional bum. i don't know if that sounds better(?) than "unemployed." finding a job's hard work, and i haven't even done much. haha. staying at home has made me even more lazy, and if i get too comfortable, i may end up in a call center. haha.
3. so far i'm not yet bored. either i'm watching tv, playing Battle Realms/Tetris, making ref cake/pasta, organizing stuff, painting, reading or surfing the internet. key word: yet.
4. i'm addicted to the Sandman series by neil gaiman. i absolutely love it. i already have volumes 1-6 and 10. i'll probably spend my first salary (if i find a job, that is) buying volumes 7-9 and 11. haha.
5. wishlist:
• a new cellphone
• a new laptop
• a JOB
  
• a boy

grabe talaga. hindi ako makapaniwala na may mga ganoong tao sa mundo.

wala kayong karapatan na magsalita ng ganon sa kaibigan ko.

akala niyo kung sino kayong magaling, matalino, mabait. pero sa totoo, kayo ay bwiset. jerks. assholes. bitches. pricks. mga putang ina. mga salot sa mundo. mga walang kwenta. hindi pa nga sapat ang mga salitang yun. wala nga yatang sapat na salita para itukoy sila. sayang lang at hindi alam ng ibang tao ang kasamaan ninyo. akala ko pa naman ambabait ninyo. hypocritical psychos.

it's good that we have enough sensibility to not stoop down to their level. those kinds of people are not worth anyone's time. (although i spent this much time just to write this post.)

buti na lang at hindi ko na kayo makikita EVER. magpasalamat kayo.

i just checked out his blog, and this was in his latest entry: (yes, i actually stole this from his blog. so what? he knows, anyway. the internet is free. and i doubt he'll come across this site -- although i know how he could. hehe.)















so.. anong ibig niyang sabihin??!! na kung pinaalam ko pa dati, "pwede" sana kami??!! the fuck.

but of course, i am only ASSUMING that THAT part of his post was about me giving him a rose; in other words, me letting him KNOW that I LIKE HIM. but i didn't actually tell him that i do or did. i just gave it.

for all i know, hindi pala tungkol sa kin yun. baka may ibang nagbigay sa kanya ng rose. or worse, baka may iba siyang binigyan.

or maybe it isn't about the rose at all.

btw, mas maganda ang rose pic ko. haha.